In the evening today, I was ambling home with my friend, complaining about how life was screwed up, about how no one understood me and I seemed to be a blame magnet…Life was horrible…My exams were going down the drain and my spirits didn’t seem to keep up as well…
I switched on the television, snuggled up in my corner like I always do, and was watching Rocky. To quote from Rocky ‘ This is once a lifetime chance. You can’t pass it by.’…That struck a chord. But there was guilt. I wanted the feeling to fade like the way it always does..this time, it didn’t.
Recently, my friend suffered from a heartbreak because of my silly error..which turned out to be a not so silly one…one of my closest friends was upset because of my impending arrogance…everyone was blaming me for no rhyme or reason..no one had the time to be there for me..
They all seemed to be busy with their lives..and I didn’t know what to do about it..which made it suck even more.
Everyone seems to be better at everything else except me..looks like the world is moving ahead without me..I guess I know why…maybe because I’m too arrogant to accept my mistakes..and give myself a second chance at being good.
I want it to end..I have to accept my mistake, not believe the blame. I just can’t let it pass by. It ain’t a time to act stupid. I want to see a better future. I want to be brave. I want to apologize and forgive myself too. I hope I can.
PS. Excuse my fits of randomness…especially ones like these.